Me

This is my first blog entry here on this site.  I guess that I will be right up front here. 

First, lets get this straight.  I love God, I am grateful that even through my unfaithfulness and imperfections, He loves me and accepts me and keeps me.

I have been out of church or over a year.  Just trying to find my place in Him without the craziness and hypocrisy that I have dealt with recently.  I know what many would say that I do.  But being judged by the people of God for another person's actions is not right and I have dealt with it for over 20 years.  Am I still serving God?  Yes.  Do I still minister to those who are in need?  Yes.

Will I ever return?  I do not know.  Please pray that I can push past the pain that the church has impressed upon me and my family.  I have tried to forgive, but the attacks continue and we are blacklisted where we live because of a young, new pastor who wanted our town for himself...the church we attended has been destroyed spiritually, and there are only a handfull of believers left.  The teens are back on the street and dont' want to be ministered to.  They have gone back to the world.  God forgive my hard heart.